Do you ever feel like a flower frying in a pan and being burnt to its very core?

If I keep waiting for something landmarking to blog about i won't keep the promise i made in my previous blog post.

Lately, I've been enjoying the feel of outside markets as opposed to walking into grocery stores at random parts of the day. Yes, i am strange, there is just something about milan, or italy in general that draws me into its market places. I hardly buy anything because I don't have so much to spend. So i'm just the stange girl that wanders aimlessly with the only purpose of taking in the chaos of men yelling "1 euro!" and people bumping into me.

I was going for a walk today and for some reason it just hit me. Sooner or later this will no longer be my life. this is temporary. I don't know why I ever thought otherwise. I guess i just forget sometimes. I can't forget. there's morning's i need a bumper sticker plastered on my forehead that says "you're in italy". I can't take any of these days fore granted. Gelato is precious (i had some really good gelato today). the pizza. the pasta. all temporary. boom! in my face. perhaps i should just not worry about it and have fun. either way.

I've been enjoying hanging out with my friend audrey and merche, the other night merche and her friend who is visiting from mexico, made a mexican dinner. it was lovely though, i felt a little unfaithful to italy. for some reason any food outside italian food makes me feel unfaithful. however it was a delicious and fun meal. i forgot what it was called. but it was similar to tortilla soup. ;)

back to school monday!

basta cosi.

A Nice Pleasant Glass of

It's been over a month since I last updated. I was thinking the other day this blog is the next best thing to recording my study abroad experiences to my camera. I mean pictures say a thousand words but the least I can do is write a thousand more to say what the camera isn't. I really owe it to myself.
I trained the cat to be a scarf. she lays right across my shoulders, it's automatic now, she just does it. I really didn't mean to do this it just sort of happened. She is is also obsessed with the shower and just stares at it blankly, i'm not quite sure what she is doing but apparently is normal for cats to stare into nothingness.

I recently went to Venice, February 4th and 5th. It was a small trip. I tried a variety of Venetian specialties and road on a gondola. The restaurant i went to wasn't that great, attractive, but just not that great in service or quality.


quiete fishy i must say, but of course that is typical of Venice. I don't remember what all this is but liver and onions is definitely on that plate. mmmmm..........

However, besides making the wrong food choice, which i suppose was bound to happen sometime in my experience, the city was beautiful and sort of lead me instead of me trying to lead it. I'm not sure how to explain. I didn't use a guide, I didn't use a map, I just went. Knowing absolutely nothing. I even got dehydrated and got a headache in the morning. Venice smells a little bit. it took me 10 minutes to discover this and about and hour to discover there were no cars. I crossed atleast 100 bridges, maybe a few of the same, and saw a lot of boats. Colorful glass and intricate masks were at almost every turn on the main streets.



I'm currently on an unexpected 2 week break from school. Other years have workshops and intensive courses and tesi and exams. And here i am just taking another break. Tomorrow I plan on finally seeing Leonard Da Vinci's last supper with some friends.

My current thoughts and feelings on life:

Last month I finally reached the acceptance stage in culture shock after fighting a roller coaster of emotions of extreme excitement, to extreme depression and frustration. From being excited on discovering different cities and experiencing different traditions at christmas, to feeling alone and completely aware that i'm different from everyone else on an extreme level, sometimes not being able to communicate or feeling like the odd one out because i don't understand completely topped with the coldest crappiest weather in milan. After the new year passing I came to terms with Milan, I was on the tram after having a drink and bite to eat with a classmate, who is from milan, It all just came together. Before this realization I thought i was suffering some kind of depression disorder and would have to seek mental health, turns out its just a stage in culture shock and it happens to pretty much everyone. Milan is huge. It is nothing like the other cities i visited, and its like my dear roommate lorenza said, there is much to be discovered within it. I didn't believe her at first but. this place is damn big. I'm glad i'm here. I'm glad i'm meeting the people i'm meeting and I have met the people i have met. despite the crappy weather right now. it was beautiful the past few days and had some nice outtings with friends. I'm in italy.

okay before i get all cliche with short and shallow phrases i'm going to end this post right here right now and will try to be better about updating.

thank you and goodnight!